I entered this weekend in fits of nostalgia to be perfectly honest. I thought I would be returning to Columbus for the weekend only for my mother to sidestep her own invite to travel northward with her.
I can't understand my attachment to that little city, but I want to be back there so badly.
To push myself further into my nostalgic turmoil, a blast from my Columbus past dropped in for a short visit. Now I keep wishing I had been 25 and not 18 when I was there, but ultimately don't we all wish we knew then the things we know now?
On the brighter side, in a fit to have my place remotely acceptable for my guest, I did a lot of cleaning. Really, I did. My place is clean enough that if I have a visitor I can lie and say, "Gosh, this has been a really busy week and I just haven't gotten around to cleaning much" and they might actually believe me. I intended to tackle the laundry basket overflowing with clean clothes today, but I have not gotten around to it yet.
I just had to sit and take in the neatness of everything.
I had my windows open and my back patio door open too and the air and the light just felt it like it did three years ago. I was just fixated. I kept having the feeling that I was going to have company because I always did. Of course my only company had left hours ago.
I just have this feeling something is about to change. Something is going to be right in my world again. The signs just keep popping up. A phone call out of nowhere, rediscovering old friends on facebook, a clean home (mostly), and then Danny Phantom.
Back in the day, I had stolen cable (sort of). I paid for internet, but used a splitter to route a cable both to my television and to my modem. So, I received every channel that came in below my internet. It was all I needed. Disney, Cartoon Network, and Nickolodeon came in on the low 30s. That's where my channels mostly stayed with little boo munching dry cereal and watching SpongeBob while I chatted on the internet with the man I thought I'd marry. Then Danny Phantom would come on. No matter what I always wanted to make it home in time to see the next episode of Danny Phantom. I have yet to figure out the appeal, but I loved the show none-the-less.
I just wish I could still be sitting in the same spot watching Danny Phantom with boo before bedtime. I want to be opening my front door for someone special--a lover or just a good friend coming to watch a movie with me. I'm just ready for changes and ready for happy to happen.
Maybe this will be the year things change.
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